Assalamualaikum and good morning everyone. today was my first entry for 2014 and its almost the end of the may. how was you guys doing ? since the school holiday already started, people already plan to do this and that, plan any short vacay, honeymoon, wedding and anything that can make them happy. 2014 teach me a lot of new things. tough challenge. love. patient. friends problem. especially may. this month makes me feels like i dont want to live anymore. people think in a short way. things get tougher. so many problems that wasnt easy to be solved. fights that never meet the end. losing people you love one by one. see true colors of the people you love. even ive already knew the monster or precisely a bitch under my blanket. so many sacrification to be made. it just so tough. too hurt. too pain to bear. brain learn. but not the heart. the heart never learn. hm, feels so awkward to type. with the broken pieces of my heart. with tears flowing down. lately its been so many tears i have shed. without any companion. all alone. just like dying on your own bed. crying with the pillow covering your face. and suddenly you look at the mirror and see yourself, unmanageable. you see your tears flows again and wondering why God makes you gone through this. wondering why God take him away from you. wondering why God makes your own best friend stabbing you from back. i was like have been slapped by the truth. only god knows when you crying, your heart dying. only God and i know what ive gone through. what path that i choose. not you not anyone else. but me.
