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Assalamualaikum. hi everyone. its been a very very long long time since i make my last post that is last breathe. so *looonggg sighingg. so many things happened to me lately. my boyfriend who i trust dumped me for silly reasons. oh god, he really took my other half away. i feel breathless when he said that he gave up on me. please boy, give your heart a break. i wish you hurt more than me :( after i love you, dumping me is the way you repay me. thanks a lot for giving me new memory & hurtful experience. i really appreciate it. but the worst part, my heart close again. i don't know. should i open it back or secure it neatly. i am afraid that this mess will happen again. i've hurt enough i've cried enough for boy who doesn't deserve me. such a waste crying for him. but i still feel like wanna cry. even he was being mean looking for a new replacement although we just broke up. why you got to be so mean honey? now i learn from past. but why i keep re-reading the chapter about me & you. i'm a fool. that boy already happy with his new girlfriend, but i, still living in the same chapter. so pathetic. my love story did not end the way i want it to end.

so after a month we broke up. i live in a dull. no lights for a brighter and cheerful smile. i throw out all his favorite thing about me. except my hair. i avoided wearing his favorite perfume of mine. and so on. now i am starting a new life, without him who once i call him a hero/savior and whatever. i still remember he teach me science at the school canteen. i still remember his kiss on my cheek. i miss when he put his arm around me and whisper i love you words when we were dating. all seems beautiful and perfect when i with him. now i just can see him, walking with his hands in his pocket. laughing with his pals and foster sister. his sweetness never fade away. i hate him for making me love him so much. why why why ? am i drunk during our relationship ? i wish you tell me that you will break my heart from the beginning so i don't have to love you this much. i am still living under your shadow biy. what i should do to forget you :(

so far, my life passed calmly. as a student, exam still my best rival. it just i don't feel the same anymore. i don't feel the happiness like i used to feel. but its okay. i don't want to blame anybody for that. i have to pay the price for what i did. so i must heal my wounded heart as soon as possible so i won't waste every seconds of my life reminiscing about him. hell yeah, i am okay and i can do it :) i am strong enough, i bet :)

gggrrr i feel so grumpy! i am not going to the g dragon concert because i was facing the gerak gempur examination. now AIA. Gna beast and 4minute. ohmaigod, this is so not cool ! i want to watch them too! aaaarrrgghhh so unfair. but its okay. my future is way more important :) *sighing again .

so that's all. and p/s for mr jerebu, please go go away okay? you make everyone having breathing problem. thank you. and guess what, i didn't go to school today. haa because the is sports activities at school. thanks mama for the extra holiday. havva nice day guys. byee :D




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