miracle happens.
Assalamualaikum guys. Today was a miracle. there is some magic given by god. He came and say that he felt sorry for what he did. maybe there's an effect after you read my blog. hey baby, you're not sorry. that was the first thought i gave you when we met this morning. i treat you like a jerk right sayang ? i am sorry for treating you like that. actually, when you meet me i feel like the taste of heaven. seeing your face already lighting up my world. but i play hard. i scolded you. i didn't respect you. i didn't gave you any chance to explain. but you still showing you calmly face over me. that's why i treat you even worse. and, after the school bell rang, we met again. i treated you bad again. i feel sorry for you. then, i apologized. i am really sorry honey for doing that to you. you know what, i already forgive you since the day we broke up. it just my heart cannot except your absent :(
a little confession please. hum when i met him, i just wanna hold his hand like we used to be. but he said, let be just a friend first. ohmaigod, straightly i remember austin mahone. bhahaha, see i was still childish. my sweet tooth always says that i am just a kid. yes abang, but i grown up. from the day we broke up, They told me to give up, to let him go and they promised that someday I'll find someone else. At first I believed them but after a while I started realizing they were wrong. you moved on but i am not. I'm still here wishing someday he will come back and we will have our second chance. that was my hope :) *sighing
hum, that was a miracle for today. but there is a lot of questions came across my mind. do i came across his mind right now ? where he knows about my blog ? who told him about my blog since i already blocked him from facebook ? hell yeah, this thing making me upside down. but, doesn't matter :)
p/s, dear awak, yes you are forgiven, come back to me and we can start all over again. but one thing is for sure, after you broke me I'm not the same person that you hurt before :) I'm looking forward on what you told me. I’m going to smile like nothing’s wrong, talk like everything’s perfect, act like it’s all a dream and pretend it’s not hurting me :) but its hurt me when you walk beside me and we didn't smile.
then, from the canteen. we walked side by side. then some junior students said this and that. then he start scolding them. that moment i feel like he was mine again. but no he is not. suddenly he noticed something on me. my perfume. to be precisely, his favorite perfume. he asked me why i wear that perfume, then i said, rindu. yes, i miss him so badly. biy, can we go back to the days where it was just you & me? We were so happy back then. carefree, no drama, just a boy & a girl who were simply crazy for each other. I miss those days. all we have now are the memories of what we used to be, & the thoughts of what could have been. i really wish that to happen. i don't wanna talk much about what he said to me. to me, his sweetness never fade away. that's why i still stick to him until now. haha :D there's hope. hafidz said that. but i am sorry bro, i never trust hope. but maybe he's right. maybe hope can make us to get back? ahh i just don't know. only time will tell :)
Quotes for today :
GOD knows who belongs in your life and who doesn’t. Trust and let go. Whoever is meant to be there, will still be there.
Everything in life is temporary. So if things are good, enjoy it because it won’t last forever. And if things are going bad, don’t worry. It can’t last forever either.
by the way, my new progress, i was joining perbarisan during this sukan tahunan for jpam/kapa/kpop. so it's gonna be a very bad bad idea. but its okay, me as a puteri lilin will stay strong and getting over the heat of the sun. i won't be scared because i won't melt :3 k bitches joking duhh ~ good byee !