Emptiness Of Life

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For past, my life turns upside down. i try to fix everything. never loose hope to make the things right again. but, no cooperation from the other side. i was like a clumsy girl who always want all the things that i did working and also perfect! but nothing perfect :) but at least im try. feel amazed with my relationship now. especially with my fosters. i tell myself this time is different. so, i will make up my mind, worst comes to worst. i think the best way is, i should go. go away, even not so far. but at least, my heart won't received some painful struct. to me, after this i will never survive on one that's coming, if i stay. like i said, i wanna move out. ALONE!


My heart breaks to million piece </3 jus god knows how i feel when making this decision. move to sarawak is not a hard way. my parents can see me every couple months. but not lovely fosters and my fellas.  im never regret on what im doing right now. i think so :')

Sweet Tooth (Aiman)

Not my intention to make u the last one to know. if u read my post, then u will know how fucking damn much i miss u. saw u at school, u look so handsome dear. no more 'comot' stuff :P u know what, im so happy to see the sparkle in ur eyes. its so right to me broth. u r the sweetest n my loved one. thanks for all of ur advise. after this how can i leave without u abg. iloveyou brother, will miss ur sweet face after this :')

Sweetie Pie (Farhan)

For some reason, here's ur part. u r my favourite! love to see u smile. your smile, so ohhsemmm ;) cannot forget that sweetie. it light up my world! even u said u don want to be my fosters anymore, but to me, i still care for you, still love u as my brother. im sorry if i lack u or what, but i never lack my love towards u broth. i swear it again, never done that :'D

Straw To My Berry (Shahir)

Aww2, he's my secret keeper. HAHA! Full with laugh when i with him. even though in text, he will make me smile. impress with ur patient. u r a good boy :3 i know that. HAHA, never losing my big laugh. thanks for everything bro! ily!

They are the main in my life. To my fosters sisters, ow can i forget them! they are so good to me, so comfort with them. they really take a good care of my broken heart ;) donno how could i be without them soon. im gonna miss them so much. iloveyousomuch my sisters. no words can i describe it. don forget me (:

yeahh, i do not regret one moment in my life. life also is a long lessons for humanity. it teach us to know more about world and something that u cannot forget. never survive for another goodbye. so never says goodbye. Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.

Do all things with love. then u will know how to earn a lovely unbroken life ;)

xoxo